Lately I`ve been

I’m not feeling like myself, or is this what myself has become and my OK self was a fake version of me? Taking the max dosage of my anti depressants but still… Looking at my place, thinking what I am doing. Looking at my place, …

I`ve seen the day I enjoyed Post Malone too!

Sure, Selena Gomez has a big contribution to that, here, I`m So Alone I am repeating myself but I really do not like getting sick on my own. For years I have been fine, not getting sick. This year I do not know how many …

Proud

I just stood in front of the fridge's open door, stared at the half bottle of white Luxembourg wine, for a few minutes really. I looked at my watch to calculate time remaining for bed. Then I turned my eyes down to some berries, did …

Love can make it happen

https://www.youtube.com/embed/-EUZNfbIudE I am not very much in the mood for dancing, fact I feel kinda blue, but Rufus makes me nod in a positive way. I am here because this I cannot share with anyone. My boss, the one who brought me here in Belgium, …

Just need to …

I claim I like being alone, I got used to it and I do not want to change it. You know, expectations and heartbreaks is what follows. I also ended up admitting that “I do not want to do this alone anymore” – this being …

Addiction is luxury

I strongly defend that depression is a luxury, for rich people with people around them to assist in the time of need. Then comes addiction. Which is quiet an expensive habit as well, adding you need to be free enough to let yourself go, out …

I`m a dumbass

I know it is not Autumn, but hear this Happy new year! I have to report some small idiot stuff, sorry for your seconds ignoring this post if you will! I just got kicked out from my first fck boy`s cuz I think he realized …

It`s been a while

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=araU0fZj6oQ I have been trying to adjust, not freak out I might say. with the lower dose of welbutrin I fear i might even get worse and stilizan x2 is not making any difference and quetiapine at night is ruining my days too, my brain …

I just ate 4 donuts in 2 minutes, drunk driving from a grocery store back home

because i have been drinking since 13h00. i entered home, evanescence was playing, i bursted in tears. in loud screaming tears. for 1 moment, i thought, feeling i can end it all, made me feel safe, at ease. in some sort of control? I am …

anorgasmia and tools that make people happy

I have learned a new word this week: Anorgasmia is a type of sexual dysfunction in which a person cannot achieve orgasm despite adequate stimulation. assuming, i moan and wake all the neighbours during intercourse, still not able to cum after 4 hours, my issue …