Rick nn Morty S5 E3

This episode might be the most that had an effect on me. On multiple levels i have to say. But right in the middle I think, Beth refuses Planetina and Morty wents "My whole life, I've never fit in anywhere. Everything I have to say …

Sincerely

I do not believe that I was serious, but i burst into tears this time for feeling OK, for feeling good where I am, feeling "well done Mary" first time ever, I can remember for long time. It was not pure euphoria but i was …

San junipero

Dear, if there is a god or similar, beg you, do not make me remain behind, no matter what. Whether you'll make me happy or suffer... I don't want any more of this, any kind of this... There goes my 6 day sobriety... bit later …

ungrateful s`onofab`tch

Archive released a new album. I decide to hold on, hang around a while longer. Weather is nice, summer is nigh, why not have another holiday or two before I get depressed and suicidal again? Then bad news start raining, thankfully not directly for me, …

Dyslexia

I cannot find anything explaining temporary or full dyslexia with bipolars but what i see is they are relating dyslexia to adhd and that is how it is relating to bipolar. I'm gonna ask my dr this tuesday if i don't forget about it but, …

Another month another therapy session

i told my therapist i am drinking less because of my last fuck up, drunken driving and ruining my car, told him i havent done shit all month, (well i have seen tool but man...) i told him i am taking the highest dose ever …

I hate myshelf

I have been drinking and driving again. I have had a horrible experience last Saturday, i drove in the wrong direction, i stopped/blocked the battery of my car because i was so pissed i was heeling on the gas and the breaks and the reverse …

erm what the hell are we ***

ok, i am 90% sure it was on twitter, there was a poll, asking for votes on tv shows, for how much they were reflecting bipolar on reallife. Spinning Out by Kaya Scodelario (i am biased but not on this matter) was mentioned as unrealistic. …

Labrinth

So I told you I binge watched Euphoria? yeah, I spent weeks listening to the soundtrack playlist on #spotify and now I am loop listening to the songs of Labrinth. like: Mount Everest ain't got shit on me'Cause I'm on top of the world or …

one day for the last day

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=40cdGKcBc9U I wish my fucking day would just come and I`d say "so long, and thanks for all the fish" . I hate seeing, hearing, one day/step at a time. no. it does not work like that. you take one day/step at a time and …