no background music

recently i have been working with some tv (in my native language, sort of a cooking show) on the background, instead of music. i am very bored of my favourite thing to do, listening to music. i need new tracks, bands; i cannot find new …

circle of life

I just pictured my niece right in front of me, somehow place me next to her, watching from the outside. went back to the days where my granma used to sit next to me when I was Beril's age. The longing for meaning or belonging, …

Antidepressants

Could the purpose of these pills be, numbing the subject until the depressed fase goes away one way or another?

I`ve seen the day I enjoyed Post Malone too!

Sure, Selena Gomez has a big contribution to that, here, I`m So Alone I am repeating myself but I really do not like getting sick on my own. For years I have been fine, not getting sick. This year I do not know how many …

Proud

I just stood in front of the fridge's open door, stared at the half bottle of white Luxembourg wine, for a few minutes really. I looked at my watch to calculate time remaining for bed. Then I turned my eyes down to some berries, did …

Just need to …

I claim I like being alone, I got used to it and I do not want to change it. You know, expectations and heartbreaks is what follows. I also ended up admitting that “I do not want to do this alone anymore” – this being …

I`m a dumbass

I know it is not Autumn, but hear this Happy new year! I have to report some small idiot stuff, sorry for your seconds ignoring this post if you will! I just got kicked out from my first fck boy`s cuz I think he realized …

anorgasmia and tools that make people happy

I have learned a new word this week: Anorgasmia is a type of sexual dysfunction in which a person cannot achieve orgasm despite adequate stimulation. assuming, i moan and wake all the neighbours during intercourse, still not able to cum after 4 hours, my issue …

A message from Ashley’s family — Mental Health @ Home

Ashley’s family sadly wishes to inform her readers that she passed away on October 9th. She could no longer bear the suffering she was experiencing and finally succumbed to her severe depression. 43 more words A message from Ashley’s family — Mental Health @ Home I …

Mexico – II While I sail towards depression :)

So, yet again, I had another block from one of my prospects because I told him I have bipolar disorder with a side burn of alcoholism, which i now accept and I will soon start working on 😛 whatever, men suck, they cannot suck the …