You were there, I was there

https://youtu.be/opeETnB8m8w This is the song I made you listen that morning. Sun was pouring in through the window, behind we could see the endless dark blue sea. Perfect setting. You lit a cigarette, I did one too. By the half of the song, you said …

My mood waves

I thought I was doing fine (better) and that was why I was not posting anything. but I do not think I still am doing fine. this is about past 3 weeks. I went to Berlin, with my situationship guy. for a few days. sightseeing, …

uneasy

i was trusting that quetiapine would help me relax a little, it dulls me anyway i do not understand why it does not calm me as well. instead i am way restless, lazy and restless. my insides are jumping up and down while i myself …

Proud

I just stood in front of the fridge's open door, stared at the half bottle of white Luxembourg wine, for a few minutes really. I looked at my watch to calculate time remaining for bed. Then I turned my eyes down to some berries, did …

I`m a dumbass

I know it is not Autumn, but hear this Happy new year! I have to report some small idiot stuff, sorry for your seconds ignoring this post if you will! I just got kicked out from my first fck boy`s cuz I think he realized …

anorgasmia and tools that make people happy

I have learned a new word this week: Anorgasmia is a type of sexual dysfunction in which a person cannot achieve orgasm despite adequate stimulation. assuming, i moan and wake all the neighbours during intercourse, still not able to cum after 4 hours, my issue …

Dear Frankie

I do not know why, but you also needed your dad who had you become deaf, you accepted a stranger instead knowingly. You were way grown up compared to many of us. I cannot get over the fact that I keep repeating, parents ruin us. …

alcohol-ism

I have not been drinking like crazy, my blackout periods were gone for at least 3 weeks and I thought I was fine. I realized though, with or without the blackouts, i still yurn, crave for drinking. I had no stress at all at work …

Before I depress – Mexico – I

So, I flew 14 hours to Mexico City, (dropped my stupid ipod under/inside my seat, tech people came to dismantle and re-do the whole seat) after 2.5 hours on land and 2 hours in the air, to arrive in Cancun. Everybody scared me, because I …

Torment

I know I am still skipping my posts for Mexico thinking I am gonna do worthy of them… In the meantime (even before hand) our family suffered a loss. Who was sort of precious to us. He is the Da of my uncle`s wife. My …