Proud

I just stood in front of the fridge's open door, stared at the half bottle of white Luxembourg wine, for a few minutes really. I looked at my watch to calculate time remaining for bed. Then I turned my eyes down to some berries, did …

I`m a dumbass

I know it is not Autumn, but hear this Happy new year! I have to report some small idiot stuff, sorry for your seconds ignoring this post if you will! I just got kicked out from my first fck boy`s cuz I think he realized …

Dear Frankie

I do not know why, but you also needed your dad who had you become deaf, you accepted a stranger instead knowingly. You were way grown up compared to many of us. I cannot get over the fact that I keep repeating, parents ruin us. …

here i am

hellooo so. it feels like a forever for me but i think i crashed to burn and rose back within 10-15 days? to be fair, i did not really crash and burn per se, i just freaked out maybe? i mentioned i seeked help, then …

Hungover vs hangover

So, the dr asks me, why did you reduce the amount you consume. I'm too fucking old now man, my stomach is dead next day all day long. That is also my first day of nit smoking. I could not even drink water then. So, …

2nd time round

I had my second round of therapy today. after a month. told the dr as well, I do not recall almost 90% of what we discussed but he summarised the bits he wanted to track. he keeps telling me I am doing a good job, …

i`m not an alcoholic, i do not have a drinking problem

au contraire, I have a very fine capacity for drinking / high limits. I have been drinking since 13:00 this morning. ok i had pinches and coffeee in between; to appear safer to environment; but rest has been 3 triples, 1 bottle of wine, I …