What can go wrong?

I started sleeping at 5-5:30 pm and waking up in the morning same hours, 5-5:30. Of course my sleep is not airtight, I keep waking up, I am having my dreams and nightmares like I used to. But at least I am using my quetiapine …

uneasy

i was trusting that quetiapine would help me relax a little, it dulls me anyway i do not understand why it does not calm me as well. instead i am way restless, lazy and restless. my insides are jumping up and down while i myself …

I just ate 4 donuts in 2 minutes, drunk driving from a grocery store back home

because i have been drinking since 13h00. i entered home, evanescence was playing, i bursted in tears. in loud screaming tears. for 1 moment, i thought, feeling i can end it all, made me feel safe, at ease. in some sort of control? I am …

heat

is it just me or does the heat work you up and get you hornier too? I cannot breath easy, my blood pressure is spiking frequently, yet i am horny as fuck... This should be a sign for you, this post is not artistic, enlightening, …

Wishful Drinking by Carrie, how happy she was when she found out about other alcoholic bipolars!

So, finally done with this book. I think thanks to ECT we missed a lot from her stories? It is amazing how you guys agree to the procedure yourselves. I thought I have been at the bottom, not able to get up, all I wanted …

ungrateful s`onofab`tch

Archive released a new album. I decide to hold on, hang around a while longer. Weather is nice, summer is nigh, why not have another holiday or two before I get depressed and suicidal again? Then bad news start raining, thankfully not directly for me, …

Labrinth

So I told you I binge watched Euphoria? yeah, I spent weeks listening to the soundtrack playlist on #spotify and now I am loop listening to the songs of Labrinth. like: Mount Everest ain't got shit on me'Cause I'm on top of the world or …

about last night – 2

I cried myself to sleep, i think, i remember crying, but I dont know where, what time, why, well why is maybe obvious but yeah you dont know. I`m killing my char in Popmundo, my fuckbuddies, lovers and mates started disappearing one by one after …

i bit myself

i always bite myself but I have a bitemark on my forearm that I dont fully recall when it is from? remember me saying in the previous post I have been crying? is it from 2 days ago? if so, why did I not see …

Fucking Belgium in the rain

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wddvvWwmEF0&ab_channel=Hooverphonic-Topic Hooverphonic Live performance is amazing! watch them whereever you catch them. I saw a stupid heart shape drawn over the dust on my postbus, i feel weird. I was coming here to say we-he, someone draw me a heart but I feel too weird …